I kind of feel like I have not flailed publicly enough over the slew of new MCR press we've been getting recently. But I don't want anyone to think I am not completely inside-out with longing for this fucking record, okay, I totally am. If you've sarvered the articles, I cannot recommend
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I don't know why I haven't really talked about it. My relationship with MCR is a little bit different than my other objects of fannish affection because I was a fan for so long before bandom, I guess, so I've never flailed fannishly about an upcoming record of theirs before! I'm not sure how to go about it! TBP had been out for quite a while by the time I started writing stories about them having sex with each other.
Speaking of stories, who is going to write me the story of how Frank was so afraid Gerard was going to say the band was breaking up that he wouldn't answer whenever Gerard called? And then Gerard sent him text messages that Frank deleted without reading, and Gerard is in LA going :( :( Frank's not speaking to me, and Lindsey is all, ffs, and calls Jamia to get it sorted out. Then foursomes.
I think the other thing is that I'm worried it'll be shit. I mean I know it won't be, I do know that, but I just want it to be amazing so bad, not for me but for THEM. The same way I wanted Umbrella Academy to be amazing so that everyone would have to love it and it IS and they DO and the same way I really want Adam's album to be amazing (in a very different way to My Chem) so the skeptics have to shut up and so he can have everything that he wants and the same way I wanted Dollhouse to be amazing so Joss could have a show again AND IT WASN'T AND MY HEART BROKE.
I really want this record to be everything they want it to be and I get so anxious about it! Like when the Desolation Row cover came out and I had no internet so I couldn't listen and
olivia_circe brought it over to my house and I had to bring her into my bedroom and shut the door and hold a pillow over my face while we listened in case it wasn't good, and then I loved it but I kept anxiously asking her, "It's awesome, right? I mean it is awesome. It's totally awesome. Is it awesome?" because...because I'm a crazy person, I don't know. Because as I have said before, overinvestment is the fangirl's way.
Does anyone else feel like this? Is it just me? It's just me, isn't it. /o\
P.S. how much do I love that they tried to make a really quick, short album, and it ended up taking forever? MY BAND IS BAFFLINGLY LONG-WINDED AS WELL, YOU GUYS. I love all of their heads.